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You

Here’s a little song I wrote…Hope You love it!

When the sun comes up in the morning

Until the moon goes down at night

I stop, I sit and I think about you and I wonder if it’s alright

Cause only God knows just how it will be

When the time is just so right

There’s only one thing that’s on my mind

Every morning, noon and every night

And that’s you

You

You’re in my heart you’re in my soul

You

You

The only one to ever let me know

That love is true and that love is real

That it’s more than just a dream

You’re everything that I’ve ever wanted

You’re the only one that I need

You

Life

Every breath I take, I breathe you in. You are the air I breathe and you are the blood in my veins. I, do not exist without you. You are my life. You’re my every thought. My every passion. You are my everything. Everything changed within my the MOMENT I saw you. I knew, INSTANTLY, that it was you I have been searching for all of my life. My soul, saw your soul, and said “There you are! I’ve been looking for you!”. My heart beats for you. It always has. I miss you more than a fish would miss the water it exists in. I need you as much too. Until someday. Until I can hold you in my arms again. Please know. Please believe. When I say I Love You…When I say I Want You…When I say I Need You…all of those, the amount of each, of everything, is indefinable. Everything combined together in every universe, cannot come close to defining it. All of them. Everything I feel. Cannot be described. Words cannot say. Actions cannot show. But every chance I get and in every moment that I exist in, I will try to let you know. I will always try. I want, need, love you. With all my heart. All my soul. All my being. I Love You. ♡

Rollercoaster

My life…a rollercoaster. But one that goes just as fast up as it goes down. My thoughts never stop. Everything I see and everything I do. Always thinking of you. Uncertainty. Fear. Doubts. Insecurities. These four horsemen are far far worse than the norm. These…they haunt me. Only one place exists where they do not tread. It’s you. Your arms protect me. Shield me from my worst enemy. Alas, not the horsemen at all. Myself.

Me. Now.

Sitting on my back steps, gazing into the western sky. Feeling your embrace in my mind. In my heart. For a moment, whilst I held you in my arms, our hearts next to one another, my soul was home. I was home. I long for your presense. To be next to you. With you. Again. Until that day, one day, comes. I hold you in my heart. In my soul. Where you have been all of my life. I love you. ♡♡

Daily Thoughts

I wake up in the morning and you are on my mind. It’s not a stretch to say, I think about you all the time. Since the moment our eyes met, regardless of those circumstances, you have not left my thoughts. You flew into me like a soft spring breeze, finding your way into my deepest crevices, filling them, fitting into them beyond perfectly. I have dreamt of you all my life. There has always been a vision of you, only you, in my mind since the moment I was. I cannot imagine a better definition of “soulmates” than you and I. Greek mythology speaks of this. Two souls, separated, condemned to wander this Earth, this plane of existense, searching for their other half. I am, we are, beyond blessed to have found each other. To know that we, that it, that love, exists. You are a part of me and I am a part of you. I cannot explain that, yet I know it to be true. I want you. I need you. I love you. With all my heart. Every song that I hear. Every word that I read. Every image I see. I see you. I always have. I always will. There is nothing, NOTHING, that I want, need, love…more than you. I would, and I will, climb any mountain. Fight any battle. Suffer any anguish. For you. Because of you. You make me, me! I love you eternally. I know I am filled with wonder. I cannot help that. My childlike curiosity has never left me. Why? How? What does this button do? Those questions, that wonder, I don’t imagine will ever leave me. Sometimes it’s good. It enables me to see more. To see what most do not. Sometimes it’s bad. For the same reasons. When I hold you in my arms, the peace that I feel, the serenity that overcomes, that fills and calms, my constantly overactive mind, is the most beautiful feeling I have ever, will ever, experience. Because at that moment, all questions are answered. At that moment, I am whole. Beyond complete in a way that I honestly believe, is unique to us. You calm the raging beast inside of me with your touch. Only you can do that to me. Only you. I wish these words could describe to you how much I care about you. How much I love you. If these words could somehow be all the water on this planet formed into one giant iceberg, they would be just the tip of it! That, that alone, drives me crazy! I want to let you know! I wish the “link” in Avatar was possible. I want you to know me entirely and I want to know you! I wish we could baby, I wish we could. I type these things, these thoughts of mine, so you can see me. More of me. And while I know that they cannot fully define or describe me, who I am, how I truly feel, they are the best that I can do. I promise that to you. To always do the best I can do. For you. Because of you. I Love You. ♡

Hello! I Love You!

It’s been quite some time since I have posted here…I want you to know that if you are reading this, and even if you aren’t, I love you! With all my heart and soul, I love you.

A quote, my favorite quote, from the movie V for Vendetta.

Valerie: It seems strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years I had roses and apologized to no one. I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish. Every inch, but one. An inch. It is small and it is fragile and it is the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it or give it away. We must NEVER let them take it from us. I hope that whoever you are, you escape this place. I hope that the worlds turns, and that things get better. But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you. Valerie.